MY SCAN WAS CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN! HoooooOOOOOOooooooOoOoOray!

Let me start by saying that waiting for scan results is a form or torture that no one should have to endure. I called my oncology office yesterday morning at 9:03 am - they open at 9. The receptionist told me to call her back at 3 pm if I hadn't heard anything. I get the run-around and am forced to leave a message on the nurses station voicemail. Right then and there, I start to tense up and get that terrible feeling in my stomach. So, a few hours pass - no call. Every time my cell phone rang yesterday I literally felt like I was going to throw up. I HATE feeling like that. I takes a lot of energy to deal with that kind of anxiety. When you have to wait that long, your mind starts playing tricks on you and goes into dark places. You starts to wonder if they aren't calling you back for a reason. Needless to say, I didn't get a thing done at work yesterday. Not one thing. Thank goodness I have a job where I can just close my office door and sit there if I want to. Thank goodness I work with people who will leave me alone if they sense something isn't right. Anyways, somehow the time passes and it's getting closer to 3 pm. I call at 2:58. I get the same receptionist and she's like "no one has called you back yet? they should be shot!" And I definitely agree with that statement. So, she tells me she is taking matters into her own hands. I finally get a call back from my onc's nurse practitioner at 3:49 pm. She immediately says "it's clean" and the thousand pound weight lifts from my shoulders. I say "do you even understand what I've been going through all day?" and she's like "but you're always so calm Kerri".....WELL NOT WHEN I'M WAITING ON SCAN RESULTS!!!!!! UGH! What the heck? So anyways, she continues to tell me that my remaining scar tissue has shrunk a little bit, which is even better news. That means it is completely dead tissue. YAY! She then goes on to say that my TSH levels (Thyroid) are high. That means my thyroid is probably about to go out, and I'll need to go on medication for that. That's probably why I've been so tired lately. Good ole radiation really did a number on my upper back and neck huh? First the l'hermittes sign and now my thyroid. Awesome. BUT, I will take it! I will take that any day of the week...if I am cured forever and have to deal with a few minor health issues here and there - WHO CARES?

So, I'm out of the woods for now. I have a follow up appt with my onc Friday afternoon to discuss when the next scan will be - and I'm praying for him to move them back to every 6 months. That would ROCK!

Ben took me out for dinner and drinks last night, and I needed it SO BADLY - my nerves were shredded by 5 pm yesterday. I still tired today, I'm just worn out from all that stress yesterday. Now let's hope I can catch up at work!

Thank you so much for all of your thoughts and prayers. I had so many calls, texts, emails, and facebook messages yesterday it was just crazy. I thought yall had forgotten about little ole me - well I guess not. Thanks for making me feel loved!

It is tough to define true happiness, but I felt it yesterday - and it feels good. Thank you God for this tremendous blessing.

Love to all!

Kerri